Sorry for the lack of posts this week... it has been a crazy one and I am very thankful that it is coming to an end. As some of you know I had my 20 week ultrasound on Monday (YAY for being halfway done!). I thought everything was going well, but when I went to leave the tech asked me to wait because she had to ask my OB something before I left.... uh oh. I immediately started to worry.
Turns out that the tech saw a small cyst (bit of fluid) in Miss M's brain... nothing too uncommon and typically goes away on it's own. However, it is a small marker for chromosomal issues like Downs.... great. So they asked me to get some blood drawn for the Quad Screen marker which checks for things like Downs Syndrome and other problems. And goody, I wouldn't get the results until Thursday morning....sigh, I suck at waiting.
I am generally not a worrier. I take the "If I can fix it then I will, but if there is nothing I can do, then why worry?" approach to life. This is a different ball game though because it is my body and I think I have a certain degree of control over what is going on... so of course I start thinking about all the prenatals I missed, how crappy my appetite has been, sleeping on my back, basically everything that I could have done differently to maybe prevent who knows what!
Fast forward through 2 days of worrying to yesterday morning. Nurse called, Quad screen came back negative for abnormalities- yay! BUT.... the OB wants to see me asap to go over some of the things seen in the ultrasound. WHAT?????? No details, nothing. Just that. UGH! MORE WORRYING???
So now I am even MORE worried because at least cysts I could research and know that pretty much they are harmless, etc. The unknown I can't even look up! I have nothing to go by and here I am, awake WAY before anyone else because my mind is once again racing. We were supposed to go to Niagara Falls today, but I canceled the trip because there was no way I could wait until Tuesday for answers.
Now I just have to wait until noon... and I HATE waiting!
** UPDATE** Well, I am so happy to say that everything is alright with both me and Miss M. There were two other anomalies found but neither are really out of the ordinary, life altering, or serious. One of her kidneys seems to be a teeny bit larger than the other which will correct itself as she continues to grow, and the tech couldn't see the middle bone on her pinkie finger. So all that worrying was for nothing since none of these things indicate anything serious and even the missing bone thing is not certain. Whew!
Thank you for all the well wishes, prayers, and thoughts... they are all greatly appreciated!